Believe

Completely NQR and TMI here, so stop reading now if you couldn't care less...

I have been waiting for my period so we can start trying to get pregnant again, this time with injectible gonadotropins. I got it today, and have my bloodwork and ultrasound tomorrow, and my first injections on Sunday, which happens to be Beltain; the ancient fertility festival.

I needed to confirm to myself that I am ready for this, so I wrote a poem and made a scrapbook page of it. I also made myself a necklace with metal letters spelling out BELIEVE that I will modify but keep wearing as I go along here.

Anyway, I thought I'd share the poem here - not so much as sharing it with all of you (although that is a nice perk!) but more as a way of announcing it to the universe. Here goes:

I am a Mother, waiting to be born.
I have been 19 years in the womb of the Maiden, growing.
Months and years of dreaming have finally brought my time near.

My heart is willing and ready to love you forever.
My arms, full-formed, are ready to hold you close.
My lungs ache for us to breathe each other in, deeply,
and my spirit can feel you coming on the morning breeze.

I am a Mother, waiting to be born;
waiting for you to bring us life.