Revamp

I got back in touch with an old friend from high school recently (Hi Crisco!) and she commented that our lives have been on similar tracks. She has a PhD in music and cognition and used to teach/work at either Harvard or MIT (blame my brain if I'm getting this wrong) before she had her gorgeous daughter. Now she runs a lovely custom stationary company from her home.

Me? Not so much. I have TWO gorgeous daughters, but other than that, I putter in my studio and used to teach high school biology. I have two bachelors degrees, one in Forest Biology and one in Education. I *would* have another in Studio Art if UVM had counted my credits from RISD as anything other than filler towards my BS. I *hope* to get my MSW in the next ten years and work with folks thrown for a loop by illness and disability, as I have been.

Hearing that she thought our lives sounded similar, I quite literally *laughed out loud.* Yeah, I went to school, worked with youth and taught them stuff, have kids and do art. Similarity *over.* Nevertheless, I had a nice ego boost, but of a variety that made me feel, well, lacking.

Then she asked if there I had a website of my artwork she could check out. Needless to say, I have been too intimidated to write back to her and tell her any of this stuff. Maybe I'll just send her a link to this blog and *really* show off my insecurities! Sigh. Did I mention that she was the kind of gal that even oozed self-confidence back in High School, when I couldn't even get it together to *speak* half the time, and felt like I looked at the world from inside my own personal fishbowl, distorted glass and all? Double sigh.

Anyway, I am telling YOU about it, gentle reader, and maybe I'll be brave enough to let her read this too. But not before I *get this blog under control.* My template has been the same since I started the sucker, I haven't posted pictures (even of my gorgeous babes) in MONTHS AND MONTHS, and it is seriously lacking in the add-ons expected in today's modern blogosphere; tag index or even - gasp - links! SO - revamp time. I hope to learn how to fix all this, and even go back and add pictures to my prior posts. All this, just to get some of my art together to show this person in a way that makes me not want to hide under my sewing table.

And yeah, I am having a WAY insecure morning. More dreams about folks from other folks from high school and woke up with a migraine. Joy. What is it about high school that it has the power to make us regress to our most insecure selves **20 years** later? Good thing I have an appointment with my therapist today! Lol.... at least I have learned to LAUGH at my self-deprecation, eh?

Sigh. Off to learn my way around Picassa2 and the 'new' blogger. Wish me luck!